this is a sappy post

So this is my 2014 new year resolution.

I'm going to have Chili's steaks more.

The only lamb I can tolerate.

So this year would mark a huge difference in the history since it's the year I'm getting married, and I just realized I haven't had the time to dwell on it since it begins - was too busy running around settling stuff for the wedding. (You think wedding preparation is fun, think again.)

So when I thought about a year from now, I get this huge lump in my throat and chills. Did I imagine I'd be engaged today a year ago? Of course not. And I can't believe I'm going to be someone's wife a few months from now; that when I think about the responsibility and how my world is going to change 360 degrees from what it is today, I quiver even more.

But to think that I have him as my fiancé; as someone whom I would have to respect and place my utmost trust on for the rest of my life, the marriage thing doesn't sound so scary anymore. I'm grateful, even to realize that not only he's the love of my life, he's also my best friend whom I share almost every single detail of my life with and soon would even share my home and bedroom with.

And that fact just makes me all tingly again. As much as I always focus on the wedding day itself all this while, I know the marriage that comes after that day is what matters and I know he's doing the best he can to provide a good life for us and be the man I'd call my imam and that makes me respect him even more.

So, for this year's resolution, I decided that I will try to be the good wife he deserves. It's scary to think how my world would change a year from now, but all I have in my stomach now is butterflies and that's a good sign, right?

Married life sounds awesome.